I am going to say however that I am tired of being pregnant.
A lot of people say being pregnant was the happiest time of their life... it has been in no way an unhappy time but I really want the baby- not the pregnancy! Yes it has been a really amazing experience and I feel so blessed to even have gone through it but I am person who really enjoys a good conclusion- and in this case God is going to bring a brand new person into the world at the conclusion of this pregnancy and I can't really imagine a more exciting ending to a very long wait so I am ready! I am just ready to start the next step of this process and for Ryan and I to become parents- I think this for me will be the happiest time as opposed to the pregnancy. I just want to see her, hold her and can't wait to find out what her personality will be. I have so enjoyed feeling her move, kick and grow but now I want to SEE all of that!
Pregnancy is an amazing thing but with it comes alot of not so amazing things...
- Weight Gain! I have gained 24 lbs as of today. I feel that is all I really need to say here but carrying an extra 24 lbs around is no fun, especially in the summer and especially because I feel so unbalanced. I don't doubt that I have gained weight everywhere but since I can't see anything past my baby bump when I look down which by the way feels more like a baby mountain these days I feel like all 24 lbs are contained in the baby mountain which just makes me feel like I could teeter over at any moment. I have never been the most graceful person anyway and have fallen a few hundred times in my 28 years and you may remember my fall that I have already had during the pregnancy so I am just walking as carefully as possible these last few days and hope to stay on my two feet. Here are a few pictures, I haven't taken my 40 week yet because I just decided to take one when we are on our way to the hospital but here I am with my mountain the last 2 weeks, my size really hasn't changed much:
38 weeks:
39 weeks:
OK back to the ailments...
- I have a few stretch marks on my stomach. Luckily they all seem to be contained in one place but I hope they go away!
- I have varicose veins... this has by far been the worst plague of pregnancy for me- I honestly had a fear of them from the beginning because they do run in my family and sure enough they started popping up along with spider veins and I can't get them removed until after baby girl is here.Luckily there are only 2 that the Dr thinks I will need to get removed,she thinks the others will go away on their own once the baby comes but I am super self conscious about them and despise them.
- I am exhausted! I have had a lot of energy pretty much throughout the pregnancy but the last few days have been so exhausting- I just feel like I could sleep all day but that is just not in the cards as I am planning to work until the moment I go into labor so that I don't take away any days from the time off.
- I am nauseous again! i have read that this happens to alot of people at the very end, i was really sick in the beginning and had to bring back sprite and crackers yesterday- I had flashbacks of the grand morning sickness which needs to be renamed all-day sickness.
We have also finally decided on a name- we just couldn't decide for 39 weeks and then while swimming which has been my absolute favorite thing to do during the pregnancy we finally came to a decision! Drum roll please....
Her name will be:
OLIVIA RYLEA JASPER
You may be wondering where this came from because we had been going back and forth on a few other names, Camdyn, Mia, Chloe and Audrey but Olivia was actually in the back of our minds from the beginning. Our only reason in stepping away from it was just that we wanted a name we didn't know anyone to have which is pretty impossible to find! We both really loved Olivia, I have actually loved it since the Cosby show way back in my middle school years and I am so excited that we chose it! For a nickname should we decide to call her one we are thinking of Livi but we plan to call her Olivia.
Now I am on the look-out for the perfect giant "O" to put on her wall above her crib. I may just cover one with fabric on my own but we have been checking antique stores because I think having a vintage metal one would be cool.
As impatient as I have been feeling I can't even tell you how excited I am! I know that Olivia will arrive at the exact moment that God has planned for her and I am in the home stretch. I can't wait to see what she looks like and hold her for the first time. We opted out of the 3D ultrasound so we truly have no idea how she is going to look- I would love for her to have lots of hair and for both Ryan and I to be obvious in her features but I really just want her regardless of all of that !! She is so loved already by not only us but our family and friends and for that I am so thankful!
Apparently I was due on May 9th and came on May 12th so it would be kind of cool now that she's late if she came tomorrow because she would be exactly a month from my bday and would have followed in my slow footsteps of arrival :-)
Olivia, as much as I wish I were holding you now I want you to take your sweet precious time and arrive exactly when you are ready! We are so excited to meet you! We love you!
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